Since we've gotten all these new people on DPS, we've kinda drifted....lost each other on the way...It was mine, Dead's , Arb's and Rish's thing...I havent even heard of Rishi or Arb for weeks...and its making me sad. You guys are making me so sad. Deady's the onlie person who's styll talking...and that makes me even more sad coz shes supposed to be resting!! What the hell happened to us??!! Arb went a few days after Ed...and then Dead didnt come... and when she did, Rish forgot us...

Worthless...
                     Emotionless...

Less then the rest..

I'm me
Meet me
Don't you dare label me
Or i'll slit my throat
And you'll be guilty
You'l start to feel bad
You'll maybe start to cry
I really hope that one day
You scream, wither and die
And that one day you're ignored
One day you're hated by all
Than one day you'll feel like i did
One day you'll be upset
And one you'll be so sad
Youll slit you're throat like me
But one day i won't be there
To feel guilty for you

 

 

Right now, Im confused. I dont know whats reallie going on. I've been fainting a lot. And Im....Ive made some friends...who I..already know....
Hmm, told ya I was confused. I cant even remember the last tyme I talked to Deady or Arb. Talked to Rish for a few minutes. I dont know what Im expected to do. The onlie thing I can think of ryte now...is running away(again)...
Im a freak again. Take a good hard look. Im a freak.

Left alone
Confused
In doubt
Screaming inside
Laughing out loud
These feelings are new
Always felt blue
Whats the point of all this?
These tears, these cuts
The onlie things I feel
Are the ones hidden in me...

I know its not much, but get over it.




I wont die of sadness

I'll die of unexpected happiness

And I wont cry coz of sadness

I'll cry coz of my lifes crappiness

But until the day I die

(NO, i wont spill my heart for you!!)

I'll do my best to survive

Im extremly low on insperation ryte now. That onlie happens if:
A- Im too depressed
B- I cant be arsed
C- Im hurtin too much, and its taking everything and everyone away from me.

I've met a lot of people recently, and I think they're changing me. I wish they'd stop. They're not doing it on purpose.

See?Im betrayed by all.
Im crying up here
And no-one knows
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No-one cares if I drown & die
No-one cares if I cut and cry
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Their busy with their lives
While I dream up a sky
And the power to scry
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Think they're used & bored
Seeing me cry
Upstairs or in stores
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GOSH, am I that worthless?
Am I that scared or annoying?
Please forgive me
I try to be someone else
Someone other than me

When you got lost, you lost me
When you got hurt, you hurt me
No-one knows those times
We talked and talked
About things that didnt matter
And never wanted to stop
No-one knows those times
We jsut sat in silence
Glaring at the screens
Enjoying every second

Sometimes i cry
Without a clue why
But a fake friend told me
'I absorb their pain,their negativity'
Is it true?
My mates are usually pretty misreble
But i know the reasons
So that ok
Coz i dont mind
Im as misreble as them
So go get a life!